...and he's Back!
The first thing I want to say is that one of the hardest things about being back in Utah is having no internet connection at my house. As a result, I cannot update as often as I might like... and I'm obviously not on AIM as often as I would have been if I had had it throughout the school year. So, bad planning on my part.Still, I made it back alright, my birthday came and went as I like it... with no one, including me, really noticing. Nineteen, and I still feel like I'm sixteen...
I have few plans for the summer- I'll probably get a job and I'll probably spend time running in my old haunts, I'm planning on learning latin (I already have two books, so that should be enough, right?) and studying Japanese. I'm taking a calc class from Doc. Stone- and those of you who read this and don't know him are missing out. Wow, that looks like I'm going to be really busy.
I was really surprised, coming back to Utah, how much I felt like a stranger even though nothing had really changed. There's an electronic bulletin at the high school now, and a few more stores on fifth west. Not much, but I still feel older and... I don't know, more tired, I suppose, than nine months away should make me feel. And I'll spend three months or so here and then go back- to new living arrangements, new classes, and a new group of freshmen. Sometimes I think I'm splitting in two.
Then I consider that, really, I haven't lost anything by changing- I still remember quite vividly all the good times that I had in both places. My appreciation for my friends remains, even when I'm away from them. Is that enough?
Sometimes I selfishly wish that I believed more in Descartes' solipsism- that the only thing I can be sure of is my own mind; then there would be no doubt that my thoughts are enough to be a good life, but then what would be the point? I'd be lying to myself- and other people are so much cooler than my thoughts, anyway.
Anyway. I'll try to head down to the library to update as often as I can.
posted by Emmett @ 11:45
3 Comments:
Glad to see that you're not dead. As far as the split between university and hometown life goes, that has been something I really noticed as well and the closest I came to crying on the whole trip back to Minnesota was driving through Baudette and realizing that I would not be able to share it with any of my friends from Gonzaga. Yeah, that split is there and it sucks, but it's necessary, I guess, when you go to school so far from where you were raised.
Welcome home, Emmett! I came up to see you, but weren't in...
Yesh, welcome back! You can expect to see Maren and I dropping in sometime soon.
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